Wine & Roses

The time of our joyous reunion is drawing to the inevitable conclusion.  I think I am doing okay at trying to hide my growing anxiety from T., but I don't know for sure.  I came close to losing it this morning.  I guess I was crying in my sleep without realizing it.

It's the part that I hate most about leave; it is the perfect amount of time to get used to having him around again, to get used to being his wife again.  I never stopped being his wife, but I missed the domestic rituals that made me so happy.  Like always trying to have our morning coffee together whenever possible...

I am so grateful that I have had this time with him and our kids, but at the same time, I can't help but be depressed.  I don't know when I will see him again.  I don't know when we will get to live as a family again. 

We still have no orders sending him back here.  This is the longest we have ever been apart.

Tonight, we are playing Marvel Alliance 2 with the boys.  I wish every day could be like this!

So Long, Farewell...

With leave, comes the ending of happiness, and the beginning of the masquerade...this is the part where I pretend everything is fine when I really want to die inside.

I am going to miss him soo much.  And just like last time, I don't know when I will see him again.

Shrinking Me

I am so excited! I lost another 1.6 pounds.  That puts me just ten pounds away from where I wanna be at the end of the summer! 

I have made myself a healthy breakfast this morning.  A cup of Special K Fruit & Yogurt cereal with ground flaxseed and a cup of nonfat milk.

For lunch, I am planning on having a Healthy Choice meal, but I haven't decided which one yet.

I am dressed and ready to go to the airport.  I am nervous again.  Somehow, I think I looked better yesterday, even though I am wearing the same exact thing today.

Snooze Blues

Apparently, my body has decided to rebel against me and wake me up early.  Today is the day I have been dreaming about for so long, so I guess I better get up.

I trudged to the kitchen to get my coffee.  Although I tried to be as quiet as I could be, Alex heard me and woke up.  I gave him his need in an effort to gurantee me a peaceful few minutes with my steaming cup of Yuban.  This strategy was only partially successful. 

So here I am, with a second cup of coffee, thinking about all the housework I have to get done today, and the irises and cannas I have to plant.  Yesterday, one of my lawn chairs almost took out the Kalanchoes.  We had Texas wind again.

I have three dozen eggs I need to boil for the deviled eggs I will be making. I will also be making shepherd's pie and some quiches.  For tomorrow, I will be making cherry cheese crepes.

I started cleaning out the truck.  I have decided to do a better job of keeping it clean starting today because cleaning it is a pain!  The eggs are still cooling and I still have six and a half hours to go.

Now I have even more time to go.  Till tomorrow to be exact.